I wish I just had the guts to spill every little thing bothering me. I wish I had the guts to ask where this is going. I wish I wasn’t so scared of rejection. I just don’t know what to do. I feel like I am not enough. I know I am not enough. Never will be, I guess that’s my downfall. Sorry.
I literally have so much on my mind… but I do not even know where to begin. I think all the time about actually getting everything out, and how to say everything…but when it comes time to actually do it, I draw nothing but blanks. Oh well, that’s how it works. Lol at life.
For a little update, I finally have a job. I love it, and I can’t wait to see where it’ll take me in life. I am really hoping to save up as much as possible and move out. I don’t like living here anymore. I am becoming invisible. I don’t understand what I did so wrong to make her hate me and treat me like this, but I do know I am fed up with it. I am not going to deal with it anymore. I’ll go to work and come home. Nothing more, nothing less. I will save every penny I can. I will get out. I will not be trapped much longer!
On the 14th, I will have been with my wonderful boyfriend for 10 months. Things are going so so good and he means so so much to me. I am so glad I accepted his friend request on facebook back in January… :)
Well, I am gonna go now. May come back and write more later.
Til then. <3